I promise to love you with all my heart, and I will be there as you grow, and I will spoil you and love you like no other auntie, so if you promise that I'll be your favourite aunt on daddy's side, that'll be more than enough for me :)
And meimei too, of course, couldn't have one without the other.
Aunty Brynn misses you so much, and expect something in the mail soon just for you, okay?
Lots and lots of kisses!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sunday, November 01, 2009
I Understand
Chae,
I know what you mean, and I know what you're feeling. I know what you're going through, and I understand everything you're saying. It's as if I were saying it myself, just in a different context. I feel you, and you're not alone. You know I am always here. I can share your pain, and I do. You're not in this alone.
And something better is on the way, I know it is. Something better is on the way because there's no way it's the right time for all this to be happening. It'll be as if a dream upon awakening. When this is all over, we'll look back and be relieved that we didn't give up here, okay?
It's hard. I walk the streets and sometimes I just have to sit down by the roadside and cry too. I don't even understand why, but I do.
And I was right. You are volatile. Try not to hurt yourself too much and I will do the same. Same reaction, different problems. But I have the exact same fears that you do. But she will make it through.
What do you do when you see a loved one just fall apart in front of your own eyes?
I know what you mean, and I know what you're feeling. I know what you're going through, and I understand everything you're saying. It's as if I were saying it myself, just in a different context. I feel you, and you're not alone. You know I am always here. I can share your pain, and I do. You're not in this alone.
And something better is on the way, I know it is. Something better is on the way because there's no way it's the right time for all this to be happening. It'll be as if a dream upon awakening. When this is all over, we'll look back and be relieved that we didn't give up here, okay?
It's hard. I walk the streets and sometimes I just have to sit down by the roadside and cry too. I don't even understand why, but I do.
And I was right. You are volatile. Try not to hurt yourself too much and I will do the same. Same reaction, different problems. But I have the exact same fears that you do. But she will make it through.
What do you do when you see a loved one just fall apart in front of your own eyes?
Friday, October 30, 2009
Masked(?) Men?
HAHAHAHA.
News article reads:
During the Great Depression, robbers had style. Now , as these two sad baddies from Iowa prove, they can't even afford masks.
Article link: Burglars Now Too Poor To Afford Masks
[He] is [his] own wife.
Man continues plastic surgery to look exactly like his late wife.
Article via Jake Madison. Strange can always get stranger. Yeack. And it's just really disturbing, especially the photo on the 2nd page of the article.
The project, P-Orridge says, has little to do with sex or vanity, and more to do with behavioral science—testing the boundaries of identity, redirecting the way “other people encode their expectations and their needs on you.” It’s like his collage work in that “we’ve always been interested in falling out of the frame."
I understand this, but the way they did it is way fucked up.
Article via Jake Madison. Strange can always get stranger. Yeack. And it's just really disturbing, especially the photo on the 2nd page of the article.
The project, P-Orridge says, has little to do with sex or vanity, and more to do with behavioral science—testing the boundaries of identity, redirecting the way “other people encode their expectations and their needs on you.” It’s like his collage work in that “we’ve always been interested in falling out of the frame."
I understand this, but the way they did it is way fucked up.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Earth to Goh!
[29/10/09 12:57:32 AM] Carynn: HELLO BYY!!!
[29/10/09 12:57:42 AM] Carynn: uj is super funny.
[29/10/09 12:58:10 AM] Carynn: yesterday, we were at crystal jade at holland v. and then a firetruck drove by into hv, so the two of us went out the kaypoh..
[29/10/09 12:58:42 AM] Carynn: and then uj said, you better be careful wearing those shoes (ballet flats!) later you fall. see my shoes? good for kicking dogs and watching fire trucks.
I've decided to create a label for UJ. Heehee.
[29/10/09 12:57:42 AM] Carynn: uj is super funny.
[29/10/09 12:58:10 AM] Carynn: yesterday, we were at crystal jade at holland v. and then a firetruck drove by into hv, so the two of us went out the kaypoh..
[29/10/09 12:58:42 AM] Carynn: and then uj said, you better be careful wearing those shoes (ballet flats!) later you fall. see my shoes? good for kicking dogs and watching fire trucks.
I've decided to create a label for UJ. Heehee.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I am...
probably the only person on this Earth who has both hypersomnia and insomnia. Or maybe it's just simple logic and I'm overthinking it.
peeved that it takes a neurological disorder to get your attention.
most commonly associated with violence.
still occasionally upset about my 21st birthday.
quite sure I've figured out the problem. It's some sort of rebellion mixed in with the "FINE! I can do it WITHOUT you and I WILL" sort of mindset. Which is why I'm up at 240 am, rubbing my eyes and looking at the Tiffany and Co website, so determined to get myself something nice (which of course, I won't do, out of stinginess) and just.. feeling uncomfortable.
peeved that it takes a neurological disorder to get your attention.
most commonly associated with violence.
still occasionally upset about my 21st birthday.
quite sure I've figured out the problem. It's some sort of rebellion mixed in with the "FINE! I can do it WITHOUT you and I WILL" sort of mindset. Which is why I'm up at 240 am, rubbing my eyes and looking at the Tiffany and Co website, so determined to get myself something nice (which of course, I won't do, out of stinginess) and just.. feeling uncomfortable.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Where The Wild Things Are
Fantastic.
There lives a beast inside us all. Some not quite so outrageous or so loving.
There lives a beast inside us all. Some not quite so outrageous or so loving.
Friday, October 16, 2009
While Complaining....
Brynn: WHAT!!! Do I have THAT many freckles???? :(
Ivan: A face without freckles is like a sky without stars.
Brynn: ...
Brynn: I'm going to blog that.
Ivan: A face without freckles is like a sky without stars.
Brynn: ...
Brynn: I'm going to blog that.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Goh Motto!
[07/10/09 11:18:33 PM] JG: i am using YY lap top
[07/10/09 11:18:44 PM] JG: yee is using desk top
[07/10/09 11:18:55 PM] JG: together we are on top of everything
[07/10/09 11:18:44 PM] JG: yee is using desk top
[07/10/09 11:18:55 PM] JG: together we are on top of everything
Monday, October 05, 2009
The solution?
God. We need God. I need God. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Always remember that.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Moon and the Fair Trade World
Ugh, I have such a headache from talking to the bus driver on my way home from watching "Moon" that I almost don't want to type this, but I have to.
On Moon, first. It was totally not what I expected, and fantastic for a one man science fiction show! And I even like the 1 second follow-up at the end of the movie. I hate it when movies simply end, and you want to know what happens to the main character in the rest of his/her life, but you simply can't because the movie ends right where he/she escapes some serious trouble. So +20 for Moon. And, because Emily didn't guess the plot right at all, +50. Hahahahaha. She's usually excellent at that, but it really was a fantasmo twist. I doubt they're showing it in Singapore but if they are, please go and catch it.
And then.. you'd think that my upcoming rant about corporations would be related to the movie, but really, it's not. It's simply growing from the rage that I have at people who form a very unsubstantiated opinion on what they see as the "world" through their window (and bus windows) and decide that they know a hell of a lot. K, first of, just because you've seen a lot of documentaries, it doesn't mean you know shitall. There's a lot of useless documentaries out there that don't make points about anything useful, and I know this because Emily used to watch a ton of those when we were living together in Fraser Hall. Like the severity of binge drinking in London. Lady, sure, those corporations are pumping out sweet alcoholic drinks, but if nobody was buying them, who'd they be selling them to? You should really be looking at the people who are binge drinking, why they're binge drinking, and decide what the problem really is from there.
Anyway, so I got on the bus after having revealed to this particular bus driver that I was in Chemical Engineering. And he'd asked what Chemical Engineers do, so I started out with the usual "petroleum, plastics, process engineering, pretty much anything" and then he started asking about biotechnology, to which I responded, yes, we can do that, but it really depends on what kind of biotechnology you're talking about (which on hindside, was the point at which I should have realised what I was getting myself into). So I mentioned a couple of things like pharmaceuticals, implants yada yada. And then he suddenly burst out with a "Oh, so you can actually do good, cos you were talking about implants, and before that you mentioned things like oil companies and all these other big corporations and we all know how evil those are (and here he went on for a bit)". To which I simply responded "Tch! You WORK for a corporation." You know what his response was? "Yes, but it's not a public corporation, which means it's not driven by profits (YEA RIGHT) and therefore completely different from a public corporation which will do pretty much anything to pretty much anyone to achieve the highest amount of profits possible". Oooooookay.
And then started the whole damn conversation about how corporations were these big, evil entities that manipulate our governments, underpay our people, pollute the environment of the countries they go to, etc. etc. And there I was, struggling to get a word in edgewise, from this left-wing socialist who didn't really know 2 shits about corporations or fair trade organizations. Gave me a huge bloody headache by the time I got off the bus, and I can tell you that was only a good 10 minutes.
Oooooh, there are just so many things I want to rave about but I just simply can't. I'd be up all night at my computer and still it wouldn't end. I just don't believe in ideals anymore. If I could choose my world, I suppose that yes, I would choose one where we all lived in fishing villages by the sea and everybody lived peacefully together and yada yada we lived in a communist country where everything was equal but as things stand, we don't, and we can't! It's simply foolish and naive to think that having the intention to "do good" will bring you to good places, give you good results, and actually help people. In this life, of which we only have 1 (as I believe, and do many people), you do as much good as you can, of course, but if doing that good comes without a higher purpose, without a more divine purpose, then how can you say that it's really for the best anyway? Think about it from a Utalitarianist point of view. How can you possibly ever know the full and complete consequences of an action which you can perceive to be a good one, when in actual fact it could do things that could.. destroy families, lives, jobs? Things are not always as obvious as 1+1 (and even there the math requires a good ten pages, and it doesn't prove anything anyway). I really don't think corporations are that bad. It brings a certain amount of equality to our world, and seriously, sure, sweatshop conditions are terrible, but would you rather those people starve to death? What other company is going to come in and say "Oh, we're going to be much nicer to you than those other people and we're going to pay you far beyond what they did, as according to how we pay people back in our own country, and we're even going to supply you the same benefits as we do them"? That's all bull.
Without ever being in that country, in that company, in that sweatshop, having lived that life, can you really say if it's for the better or for the worse??? GAH! It makes me so angry.
It would be nice if we could live in a fair trade world. Everybody wants to buy the expensive coffee that the fair trade organizations sell because that expensive farmer has decided he can afford to live the fair trade life. But what about the poor farmer working for the MNC that survives by the job he has? What alternative do he and his family have? It's so unrealistic to say that without corporations the world would be a much better place. You can say I'm plagued by cynicism but I just don't think that it's corporations that are to blame so much as individual people. I'm not making much sense. When I have too much to say and I'm frustrated, I can never really explain myself properly. Argh, I'm irritated.
I'll continue this another day.
On Moon, first. It was totally not what I expected, and fantastic for a one man science fiction show! And I even like the 1 second follow-up at the end of the movie. I hate it when movies simply end, and you want to know what happens to the main character in the rest of his/her life, but you simply can't because the movie ends right where he/she escapes some serious trouble. So +20 for Moon. And, because Emily didn't guess the plot right at all, +50. Hahahahaha. She's usually excellent at that, but it really was a fantasmo twist. I doubt they're showing it in Singapore but if they are, please go and catch it.
And then.. you'd think that my upcoming rant about corporations would be related to the movie, but really, it's not. It's simply growing from the rage that I have at people who form a very unsubstantiated opinion on what they see as the "world" through their window (and bus windows) and decide that they know a hell of a lot. K, first of, just because you've seen a lot of documentaries, it doesn't mean you know shitall. There's a lot of useless documentaries out there that don't make points about anything useful, and I know this because Emily used to watch a ton of those when we were living together in Fraser Hall. Like the severity of binge drinking in London. Lady, sure, those corporations are pumping out sweet alcoholic drinks, but if nobody was buying them, who'd they be selling them to? You should really be looking at the people who are binge drinking, why they're binge drinking, and decide what the problem really is from there.
Anyway, so I got on the bus after having revealed to this particular bus driver that I was in Chemical Engineering. And he'd asked what Chemical Engineers do, so I started out with the usual "petroleum, plastics, process engineering, pretty much anything" and then he started asking about biotechnology, to which I responded, yes, we can do that, but it really depends on what kind of biotechnology you're talking about (which on hindside, was the point at which I should have realised what I was getting myself into). So I mentioned a couple of things like pharmaceuticals, implants yada yada. And then he suddenly burst out with a "Oh, so you can actually do good, cos you were talking about implants, and before that you mentioned things like oil companies and all these other big corporations and we all know how evil those are (and here he went on for a bit)". To which I simply responded "Tch! You WORK for a corporation." You know what his response was? "Yes, but it's not a public corporation, which means it's not driven by profits (YEA RIGHT) and therefore completely different from a public corporation which will do pretty much anything to pretty much anyone to achieve the highest amount of profits possible". Oooooookay.
And then started the whole damn conversation about how corporations were these big, evil entities that manipulate our governments, underpay our people, pollute the environment of the countries they go to, etc. etc. And there I was, struggling to get a word in edgewise, from this left-wing socialist who didn't really know 2 shits about corporations or fair trade organizations. Gave me a huge bloody headache by the time I got off the bus, and I can tell you that was only a good 10 minutes.
Oooooh, there are just so many things I want to rave about but I just simply can't. I'd be up all night at my computer and still it wouldn't end. I just don't believe in ideals anymore. If I could choose my world, I suppose that yes, I would choose one where we all lived in fishing villages by the sea and everybody lived peacefully together and yada yada we lived in a communist country where everything was equal but as things stand, we don't, and we can't! It's simply foolish and naive to think that having the intention to "do good" will bring you to good places, give you good results, and actually help people. In this life, of which we only have 1 (as I believe, and do many people), you do as much good as you can, of course, but if doing that good comes without a higher purpose, without a more divine purpose, then how can you say that it's really for the best anyway? Think about it from a Utalitarianist point of view. How can you possibly ever know the full and complete consequences of an action which you can perceive to be a good one, when in actual fact it could do things that could.. destroy families, lives, jobs? Things are not always as obvious as 1+1 (and even there the math requires a good ten pages, and it doesn't prove anything anyway). I really don't think corporations are that bad. It brings a certain amount of equality to our world, and seriously, sure, sweatshop conditions are terrible, but would you rather those people starve to death? What other company is going to come in and say "Oh, we're going to be much nicer to you than those other people and we're going to pay you far beyond what they did, as according to how we pay people back in our own country, and we're even going to supply you the same benefits as we do them"? That's all bull.
Without ever being in that country, in that company, in that sweatshop, having lived that life, can you really say if it's for the better or for the worse??? GAH! It makes me so angry.
It would be nice if we could live in a fair trade world. Everybody wants to buy the expensive coffee that the fair trade organizations sell because that expensive farmer has decided he can afford to live the fair trade life. But what about the poor farmer working for the MNC that survives by the job he has? What alternative do he and his family have? It's so unrealistic to say that without corporations the world would be a much better place. You can say I'm plagued by cynicism but I just don't think that it's corporations that are to blame so much as individual people. I'm not making much sense. When I have too much to say and I'm frustrated, I can never really explain myself properly. Argh, I'm irritated.
I'll continue this another day.
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